I quit.

It's time to stop drinking & start getting healthy. I swear I've gained like 10 pounds since December. I'm sure it has alot to do with the amount of alcohol I've consumed. But I'm done. No more. I need to get in shape. 

Do you ever feel

Today has been such an emotional rollercoaster. Actually, scratch that. This whole week has been an emotional rollercoaster. Lately I feel like I forget to breathe sometimes. I feel as though my world is getting smaller and smaller. Kind of like in movies where the character is in a room then suddenly the walls start to move closer and closer together.. something like that. But anyway, do you ever feel like maybe it's all mental? It's all in my head, this anxiety I get. I've been able to control it at times, but with all the chaos lately it's getting so much harder. My anxiety has gotten so bad, that I've had to call out of work. I need to stop letting this control my life. 

Breaking Bad

Breaking Bad. Season 3. Episode 8. I See You. 

I am so ridiculously addicted to this show. Since the last season of Dexter ended, I was in need of a show to get hooked on. So while I wait for season 8 of Dexter, I am on a Breaking Bad binge, and I love it. Who else is excited about a show? Let me know what it is! 

Until next time. 

Have You Ever Felt

Have you ever felt like you know what is going to happen, it's just not the right timing? Like that saying, "The right thing at the wrong time is still the wrong thing." I remember I used to live by that quote. I swore on it. Somehow though, I got lost in the world and started to believe that I can do WHATEVER I want, WHENEVER I want, and for the most part that still stands. However, what good is it, if what I do at the wrong time won't be as blessed as if I would have waited for the right time. That green light, or that sign, or just the knowledge that this in fact is the right time. Anyway, that's where I stand right now. I know that what I'm going through is good, and I know that what I believe should happen will. However, I also have this feeling that it's not the right time for this to unravel. Therefore, I will continue to count on signs and feelings to guide me. Until then, I'll continue to embrace what is, right now.

I'm back

I can't promise that I'll stay. But I can promise that I missed this so much. I miss writing down ideas or thoughts. I miss the feeling of seeing what your feeling be put into words in front of you. I can't wait for the new adventures. Stay tuned my darlings. <3