What is love?

We need to get over this idea that love is an emotion. Love is NOT an emotion or a feeling, it is a choice. Love is not "do this and then I'll give you this..". It's I love you right now. I pursue you right now. I give you grace right now. Imagine a baby learning to walk and he falls. Imagine the parent saying oh no, you fell, I don't love you anymore. I don't want you anymore. I mean can you imagine if God did that to us? But because God already took the ultimate sacrifice we can now mess up and He will still pursue us and love us. In the Old Testament we see God dwelling in this big dome like temple and He makes himself vulnerable to His creation. Imagine that! And even when we rebelled instead of leaving us He says hmm ya know I'll make myself even more vulnerable. I'll actually put myself in the flesh and I will walk among them. & even then we crucified him and hung him on a cross. He rose from the dead and said I want to get even more intimate with my creation so He put himself in us and that is the Holy Spirit. So all throughout the scriptures we see God becoming more and more intimate. He will never stop pursuing us even when we run away. That's pretty awesome! 

Such a busy weekend coming up

It's no surprise the weekend before Halloween is always so busy. This weekend is about to be mega hectic. Let's start off on Thursday. I have to bake 6 dozen cupcakes & 4 dozen cookies (biggest order yet). That all needs to be completely done by 4pm on Friday. I have a wedding at 5pm Friday evening. Saturday morning at 9am I have to deliver all those sweets to a fundraiser event. I have to stay there and mingle for business purposes. I'm actually really excited, because there will be a news broadcasting the entire event, and it's for a great cause! Then at 11am I have a bridal shower to attend. That should be all done by 3pm the latest. After that I have to set up and get ready for a Halloween party at 7pm. Wooh! :) on Sunday morning I have a simple cake order to do, deliver it at 4 & then attend my nieces party right after. Crazy but fun weekend ahead of me! I am so beyond thankful to God for opening up doors and opportunities. Thank You so much Lord, because You are good and You are merciful! I want to love the way that You love me! An unconditional, never ending, extreme and passionate love. I am so blessed. <3

All business baby!

So excited about my new business cards. I have my first event next weekend and I'm so excited. There will be media exposure and hopefully a huge turn out! So thankful to God for the opportunities. 

It's one of those years for me

It's easy to say that this year has been hands-down THE worst year of my life. Heartbreaks, loss of loved ones, financial stress, car accident (then leaving me without a car), loss of job.. oh yeah and the lifestyle I was living sucked too (drinking & partying). Don't get me wrong, some good things happened too. I just had really high expectations for this year. However, I think that's exactly where I went wrong. I am all for having plans and dreams, but only if I allow God to guide those. Only if I put Him in the center of all my plans. I failed to pray about situations and asking God wether that was His plan or not. So, why am I disappointed things went so wrong? Maybe had I stopped and asked for guidance, I would have have been re-directed onto a better path. Either way, things happen for a reason, and lessons are learned through experience. So from here on out, I vow to live a God driven life, and I hope you all join me in this amazing journey. 

Yes or no?

Does anyone miss me yet? I miss me. Did you get that? K. 

I quit.

It's time to stop drinking & start getting healthy. I swear I've gained like 10 pounds since December. I'm sure it has alot to do with the amount of alcohol I've consumed. But I'm done. No more. I need to get in shape. 

Do you ever feel

Today has been such an emotional rollercoaster. Actually, scratch that. This whole week has been an emotional rollercoaster. Lately I feel like I forget to breathe sometimes. I feel as though my world is getting smaller and smaller. Kind of like in movies where the character is in a room then suddenly the walls start to move closer and closer together.. something like that. But anyway, do you ever feel like maybe it's all mental? It's all in my head, this anxiety I get. I've been able to control it at times, but with all the chaos lately it's getting so much harder. My anxiety has gotten so bad, that I've had to call out of work. I need to stop letting this control my life.